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salam readers..apakhabar semua?apakabar perasaan?apakabar iman?
for me everything is allright at the moment. just deep in my heart, I feel a bit emotional about one thing. IS TEACHING REALLY MEANT FOR ME?
last two weeks, I've been observed(cerap) by my GB, after the P&P session , she called me to let me know about my performance. Seriously, although I know I'm not that good at making learning MATHEMATICS is fun but I never thought I would get such a poor mark. hmm, she said I lack creativity to make learning is fun and I failed to make my children enjoys Mathematics. After the session, besides feeling a bit DOWN, I also 'muhasabah' diri whether I m qualified enough to be a teacher?lately, I've been questioning myself, again and again whether I make the right career decision?allahua'lam.
I used to enjoy teaching, I like my kids(my pupils),I can bergurau with them while teaching them. But lately I notice I am always like LION, roaring in the class. Sometimes my anger get the better off me. Am I under stress?ALLAHUA'lam.
sometimes I think I want to quit, but what else I can do? Off course my family cannot afford one working parent.besides, I'm going to be bored to death at home..maybe its time for me to reevaluate myself whether i am worth enough to be a teacher..