Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Surfing from my hp

Hello everyone.Its a been a week and today finally i am able to write something.Writing is passion for me.There must be no hurry and idea will overflow as soon as my finger tapping the keyboard.Currently i'm blogging from my hp n to tell u d truth,although i pass my mobile comm paper with flying colours in u(thnx to the dedicated dr mahmood..Ops..Prof mahmood),i cannot differentiate between my gprs k310i and my new 2nd hand 3g phone.I can bluf ab EDGE,HDSPA,3.5G and so forth but actually i know nothing.Talking abt wasting my ilmu here.But since i grad,my interest in d technology had dwindle a bit.Esp when i pursue my ed diploma which had nothing to do with my degree.Hehe.However,thanks to my muna who had pour a bttle of cooking oil over my k310i last week,finally i can have the luxury of browsing at 3g speed using my husbnd-soon-to-be-mine-once-his-n73arriued.He said its a birthday gift which is nxt wk(although i am thnkful for his generosity-i still question the 2nd hand gift:).I just notice that it just a bit faster and by using opera mini,its like surfing mini pc( sounds like maxis ads on tv rite:):). For me it is quite convenient especially I only surf at school and rarely at home since my 2 girls are so eager with the technical things that make i would rather pay my bills at atm than at home anymore.but with my hp, everything is the end of ur fingertips. u just need to know few things and voila!reading yesterday's newspaper also is the thing of the past since mobile edition nespaper its already here( currently in malaysia,its only sometimes to reach out to urfriend using yahoo also available in maxis portal.basically i'm just talking abt maxis here since i'm using, anybody want to add abt celcom n digi?

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

becoming a wife

in this modern time, women face a tremendous challenge in their life.
I am included in this era and had since embrace few roles in my life since married to my husband for the last three years.

before getting married, for me marriage is full of bed of roses and everything is nice and good:)
after few days of marriage and moving to our own rented-house finally the reality sank in:)
ok - fast forward to three years later, i am now quite comfortable with my role as a daughter, wife, mother. but actually i forgot my most vital role, as a partner n friend to my husband.


Permata (Untuk Isteri Ku)

Telah ku siapkan satu daerah paling sunyi
Dalam hati ini untuk kau isi sebagai isteri
Untuk kau penuhi dengan kemuliaan seorang wanita
Untuk kau beri erti dengan kelembutan
Untuk kau hargai dengan kasih sayang

Ku ingin kau jadi wanita mulia
Yang tahu harga budi dan hati
Seorang lelaki bernama suami

Kerana engkau isteri
Ku ingin kau mengerti bahawa hidup ini
Tak semudah yang kita janjikan
Yang kita janjikan
Kerana kau isteriku

hehe..jiwangla plak

since becoming mother to two beautiful girls, i am so devoted(perasanla plak) to them that i had forgotten to be my husband's very close friend, loyal confidante and rarely speaks besides abt our girls, but suddenly after coming back from kg, i feel sorry to see my father who is beginning to losing his capability to speak and arguing with my mom. although they argue a lot-but it is some sort of telepathy for them and my mom who usually whining to me to became middle-man between her n my daddy had suddenly stopped complaining. every calls to me now is all abt ayah's losing himself, no sleeping n eating for days made me wondering what would happen to me when my other's half start to be like that?especially when all the children had already left the nest and we are completely on our own?based on that thinking, i start to pay more attention to my husband's rumbling abt his incapabilities colleague, his demanding boss and his never-ending -workloads-which-had- keep- me- furious:) I promised myself to be more listening and talking with him and not just prioritise the house chores.

based on that promise, yesterday I went to ppdkl to sent the school's data and after that we went for a short dating:). suprisingly i feel so awkward.back then,(while we are still dating- dating is completely a no-no n ISLAM is strictly against that-tp tgh darah mudala katakan, we managed to curi-curi dating for a few times--:))betulla org ckp,sebab bende tu haram,jd macam best plak:) but now, we are married to each other,yet I feel so awkward holding his hand, my husband lgla tak sporting:). we just went to the nearest mall since I have to sprint back to school after that n have kfc. we share a plate n no suap mkn beradap here:) n then he send me to school while he took my daughters from babysitter's house. maybe the awkwardness happen because we always kelam kabut while going shopping with our two hyper-energetic girls. while the elder always sprinting all over the mall barefoot( i dont know why, but she always take off her shoes and sprinting along the hallway),, the younger always use her hand to grab everything she can along the aisle. and dont keep me started abt dining out with them. last weekend, I had vowed never to dine-out again after one of our plate of buttered chicken flew all over the restaurant-thanks to the next-to-be-olympic-gold-medallist-hurdler anisah munawwarah. phew...guess, that restaurant will never see our face again:)

ok, next time I'll keep u updated on our another "DATING":)


it almost a month i didnt have time to write here
so many paperwork I have to do. Although my priority is to teach but due the limited time, sometimes I have to sacrifice a bit of my teaching time so that I can still able to catch the deadline. finally today I feel a bit relief especially after I have send my school's data to ppdkl,jabatan pendidikan wilayah yesterday.
between my hectic schedule, alhamdulillah I still manage to fly back to kg last weekend to attend 'kenduri kesyukuran ' held by my parents and able to catch things up( n berniaga as well) with my siblings, especially my sis who had been residing in qatar for past few years. not to forget my cousins,aunties, relatives and few villagers who still recognize me as "budak rajin naik basikal keliling kg":).although it's like festive mood, i feel a bit sad to see my aging father,his health is deteriorating and his diabetes had finally try to take some of his sight away. my tears fell down when he use his hand to 'meraba-raba' like blind people do to see my Muna. "muna ke ni, AWAT KECIK SANGAT". yA ALLAH, I QUICKLY WIPE MY TEARS.
beside his deteriorating sight, his leg are swollen to the extent of like going to burst anytime, my sis (the doctor) said it caused by water retention-sign of his kidney getting weaker. but my father, the staunch medicine-taker had been aging and had recently started to lose his hope. he reluctant to get treatment, refuse to eat his med and rarely eat and sleep. its very painful to see what he is going through but i sincerely hope ALLAH will lift his misery and let he live his golden age in joy and happiness. many of his friends came during the feast to visit him and he warmly embrace everyone with smile and sometimes cracking jokes although i knew he barely recognize anyone.
ajal, maut is in ALLAH's hand but I do hope i still have lots of moment to share with him. ayah, how I miss your jokes,ur thousand questions about my work( I have field day answering his q's while in my confinement), ur endless advise on becoming a very dedicated civil servant like u do (he rarely take his leave while he's working- a trait that had been pass to my eldest brother) and most of all I need you to give ur love and undivided attention to my children,u're the only grandfather they can see(my husband's father already died before we married). YA ALLAH,WITH YOUR KINDNESS, UR RAHMAN and UR Rahim, PLEASE RETURN MY FATHER"S HEALTH.ameen

Monday, July 7, 2008

forgive me for just cut n past entry
quite bz-bee rite now
after this i'll be back insha allah

from kheru krek's blog


Kita selalu bertanya.... ......... .......dan Al-Quran sudah menjawabnya. ......... .......



"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," ("I am full of faith to Allah") sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan, sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta." -Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3



"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216



"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. " - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286



"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman." - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139



"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan) , dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah (be fearfull of Allah The Almighty) kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan). "



"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk" - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45



"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ? - Surah At-Taubah ayat 111



"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. " - Surah At-Taubah ayat 129



"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir." - Surah Yusuf ayat 12

Friday, July 4, 2008



positive measures consumers can do:

· Packing lunches/snacks at home and having them at the office;

· Having more meals at home and eating out less;

· Reducing electricity consumption, such as reducing the amount of time the air-conditioner is switched on or using the fan more often;

· Planning travel in advance;

· Using public transport more often;

· Buying only when necessary, and evaluating the needs versus the wants;

· Using energy-efficient equipment, like a front-loading washing machine rather than a top-loading one;

· Stop using credit cards; and

· Buying house brand goods instead of branded goods.

Thursday, July 3, 2008


something to read from ppim email group

Dear all,

After reading all the chain mails and blogs, I feel called to reply, because
of the relentless attacks and allegations -- most of which are inaccurate or
baseless -- against PETRONAS.


1) The salaries paid to PETRONAS' employees are not as high as people think.
At best, they are just industry average. And these are not attractive enough
for some who left PETRONAS to find work at other companies (mainly from the
Middle East) which are willing to pay more. Why do they pay more? The oil
and gas industry worldwide has been facing acute shortage of qualified or
experienced personnel, so most companies are willing to pay lots of money to
entice and pinch staff from their competitors.

Bonus? There has NEVER been a bonus amounting to 6 months or 12 months
throughout the 33 years. On average, it is 2 months. But don't ever think we
don't deserve it. We more than deserve it. A lot of us work really hard,
some in the most extreme of conditions. Those who have been to and worked in
northern Sudan, for example, would testify that it's like working in a huge
blower oven. Southern Sudan, on the other hand, is almost all swamps and
mud. Imagine having to go through that kind of heat, or waddling in muddy
swamps, day in and day out.


2) Malaysia produces about 600,000 barrels of crude oil per day (and about
100,000 barrels condensate). Of this crude volume, 339,000 barrels are
refined locally for local consumption. The rest is exported (and yes,
because it has lower sulphur content it fetches higher prices).

Malaysia also imports about 230,000 barrels of crude oil per day, mainly
from the Middle East, to be refined here. This crude oil contains higher
sulphur and is less expensive (so the country gains more by exporting our
crudes). In Malaysia, this crude is processed by PETRONAS at its second
refinery in Melaka, and also by Shell at its Port Dickson refinery.

Different refineries are built and configurated to refine different types of
crude. And each crude type yields different percentage of products (diesel,
gasoline, kerosene, cooking gas etc) per barrel.

But most importantly, products that come out at the end of the refining
process have the same good quality regardless of the crude types. That's why
PETRONAS, Shell and Exxon Mobil share the same pipeline to transport the
finished products from their refineries to a distribution centre in the
Klang Valley. The three companies collect the products at this centre
accordingly to be distributed to their respective distribution networks.
What makes PETRONAS' petrol different from Shell's, for example, is the
additive that each company adds.


3) A lot of people also do not understand the role and function of PETRONAS,
which is essentially a company, a business entity, which operates on a
commercial manner, to mainly generate income and value for its shareholder.
In this case, PETRONAS' shareholder is the Government.

In 1974, when PETRONAS was set up, the Government gave PETRONAS RM10 million
(peanuts, right?) as seed capital. From 1974 to 2007, PETRONAS made RM570
billion in accumulated profits, and returned to the Government a total of
RM335.7 billion. That is about 65% of the profits. That means for every RM1
that PETRONAS makes, 65 sen goes back to the Government.

Last year, PETRONAS made a pre-tax profit of RM86.8 billion. The amount
given back to the Government (in royalty, dividends, corporate income tax,
petroleum products income tax and export duty) was RM52.3 billion. The rest
of the profit was used to pay off minority interests and taxes in foreign
countries (about RM7.8 billion - PETRONAS now operates in more than 30
countries), and the remaining RM26.7 billion was reinvested. The amount
reinvested seems a lot, but the oil and gas industry is technology- and
capital-intensive. Costs have gone up exponentially in the last couple of
years. Previously, to drill a well, it cost about US$3 million; now it costs
US$7 million. The use of rigs was US$200,000 a day a couple of years ago;
now it costs US$600,000 a day.

A lot of people also do not realise that the amount returned by PETRONAS to
the Government makes up 35% of the Government's total annual income, to be
used by the Government for expenditures, development, operations, and yes,
for the various subsidies. That means for every RM1 the Government makes, 35
sen is contributed by PETRONAS.

So, instead of asking what happens to PETRIONAS' money or profits, people
should be questioning how the money paid by PETRONAS to the Government is


4) A lot of people also ask, why Malaysia exports its crude oil. Shouldn't
we just stop exporting and sell at cheaper prices to local refiners? If
Malaysia is an oil exporting country, why can't we sell petrol or diesel at
cheaper prices like other oil producing countries in the Middle East?

I guess I don't have to answer the first couple of questions. It's simple
economics, and crude oil is a global commodity.

Why can't we sell petrol and diesel at lower prices like in the Middle East?
Well, comparing Saudi Arabia and other big producers to Malaysia is like
comparing kurma to durian, because these Middle Eastern countries have much,
much, much bigger oil and gas reserves.

Malaysia has only 5.4 billion barrels of oil reserves, and about 89 trillion
cubic feet of gas. Compare that to Saudi Arabia's 260 billion barrels of oil
and 240 trillion cubic feet of gas.

Malaysia only produces 600,000 barrels per day of oil. Saudi Arabia produces
9 million barrels per day. At this rate, Saudi Arabia's crude oil sales
revenue could amount to US$1.2 billion per day! At this rate, it can
practically afford almost everything -- free education, healthcare, etc, and
subsidies -- for its people.

But if we look at these countries closely, they have in the past few years
started to come up with policies and strategies designed to prolong their
reserves and diversify their income bases. In this sense, Malaysia (and
PETRONAS) has had a good head start, as we have been doing this a long time.

Fuel prices in Malaysia is controlled by the Government based on a formula
under the Automatic Pricing Mechanism introduced more than a couple of
decades ago. It is under this mechanism that the complex calculation of
prices is made, based on the actual cost of petrol or diesel, the operating
costs, margin for dealers, margin for retail oil companies (including
PETRONAS Dagangan Bhd) and the balancing number of duty or subsidy. No
retail oil companies or dealers actually make money from the hike of the
fuel prices. Oil companies pay for the products at market prices, but have
to sell low, so the Government reimburses the difference -- thus subsidy.

Subsidy as a concept is OK as long as it benefits the really deserving
segment of the population. But there has to be a limit to how much and how
long the Government should bear and sustain subsidy. An environment where
prices are kept artificially low indefinitely will not do anyone any good.
That's why countries like Indonesia are more pro-active in removing
subsidies. Even Vietnam (which is a socialist country, by the way) is
selling fuel at market prices.


5) I feel I also need to say something on the allegation that PETRONAS is
not transparent in terms of its accounts, business transactions etc.

PETRONAS is first and foremost a company, operating under the rules and
regulations of the authorities including the Registrar of Companies, and the
Securities Commission and Bursa Malaysia for its listed four subsidiaries
(PETRONAS Dagangan Bhd, PETRONAS Gas Bhd, MISC Bhd and KLCC Property
Holdings Bhd.

PETRONAS the holding company produces annual reports which are made to
whomever wants them, and are distributed to many parties and places;
including to the library at the Parliament House for perusal and reading
pleasure of all Yang Berhormat MPs (if they care to read). PETRONAS also
makes the annual report available on its website, for those who bother to
look. The accounts are duly audited.

The website also contains a lot of useful information, if people really care
to find out. Although PETRONAS is not listed on Bursa Malaysia, for all
intents and purposes, it could be considered a listed entity as its bonds
and financial papers are traded overseas. This requires scrutiny from
investors, and from rating agencies such as Standard & Poor and Moody's.


6) The last time I checked, this is still a democratic country, where people
are free to spend their money wherever they like.

For those who like to see more of the money that they spend go back to the
local economy and benefiting their fellow Malaysians, perhaps they should
consider sticking to local products or companies.

For those who like to see that the money they spend go back to foreign
shareholders of the foreign companies overseas, they should continue buying
foreign products.


I'm sorry this is rather long, but I just have to convey it. I hope this
would help some of you out there understand something. The oil and gas
industry, apart from being very capital intensive, is also very complex and
volatile. I'm learning new things almost every single day.

Appreciate if you could help to forward this response to as many contacts as
possible to counter the subversive proposal out there.

Thank you.










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the circus in town

looking at the title u'll think that i am going to talk abt london circus maybe, but sorry..( i've never been to circus, i would do them no justice if i talk abt something i have no knowledge at all)

well lately there's so many things ( u know what things) n i think everyone knows all abt it. to quote from janna syariza's blog..unless u're living in timbuktu, for sure u've heard the news. strangely despite all the news, i dont want to talk abt it, because all the readers would have read it elsewhere whether our traditional newspaper, website n blogs..but i want to talk abt ten years ago.

back in 1998, one fine morning, late for class as usual:).late i mean abt 5minutes before class started. i rarely late for class except i have night activity the day before( not clubbing, nauzubillah..usually only marathon movie watching or students association's meetings). my dear friend,S came to me and said..weh, anwar kene sack la..with my blurry eye, i said what? i dont understand. then she show the "satu kg"mate have been sacked from dpm position.that day mark the date of all this circus in our nation's history.

since 10 years ago, i have graduated from local u, start working, get married and have two beautiful daughters. and yet malayisan circus still going on. truely, i'm tired. tired abt all these and my pity goes to datin sri wan azizah and her family. whether DSAI do it or not, i really pity the wife and the children. especially the children. since becoming wife and mother, i can understand the plight that she held and the suffering that the children have to brace through. Ya Allah, lindungilah saudara-saudara kami ini. well, politics aside but is it fair to the children?

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


yesterday i received letter from my superior asking me to attend tomorrow meeting at the jabatan and the best part is, i have no idea what the meeting is all about except it says for "PPSMI coordinator". GREAT

i knew PPSMI is all about ETems( for u unfamiliar abt this abbreviations, just remember that this is abt teaching maths and Science in english) but I have nothing to do with ppsmi all my life. well, the person who is in charge before this is my very dear and close friend, kak t. however she just being transfered to kelantan and now the job is being given to me. oh great..i remember she already promised me to coax my superior not to land the job with me since i am quite bz(ahem..) with my current workload but it seems my superior had already make up her mind before she even being coaxed by kak t

wow, great..the job is one thing and going tp give my answer and opinion at jabatan level is another. terbayang-bayang the person in charge in jabatan will say, how come u dont know? cikgu tak wat kerja la ni..tottettottet...(sound like me when asking my daughters to take their nap)

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